I confess, that I, even I also, am not born a Master;
neither have I invented this science of my own proper Genius; but I
have learned it from others in the manner which I will hereafter tell
thee, and in truth.
PREFACE
Im going to make this real cut and dry..... the elixir you seek (or any type of magick, powers or what have you) must be granted to you... if you read into these books they explain exactly "how" and "why" the unworthy never obtain these works (alchemy included)
its rather simple... those who are unworthy and unwise are literally baffled by the language no matter how clear it is... until you become worthy in the eyes of Divine Law..... Fear of the LORD is literally the beginning of all wisdom.... is what my words say are confusing you please understand you a being blinded from powers beyond because of the condition of your heart
they call it Kabbalah for a reason, its means reception.... these sciences are not learned they are "received".. if you are in disbelief you are welcome to try as much as you like you will have consistent failure... unless a Sage, Magi or any true practitioner decides for some odd reason to just give it to you (which will induce punishment if not done properly)
a COMPLETE understanding is very necessary
put this is the straight away path to your hearts desires if you would but humble yourselves and not lean on thy own understanding
these are the 3 parts of wisdom of the world
operation of the sun
operation of the moon
operation of the stars
the books below give a very descriptive overview of the 3....a good way to track yourself is when something is confusing you, its being hidden from you because you are not worthy.... people who tend to be under divine grace of any kind always baffle the unworthy and the unwise... this confusion is meant to either protect you or protect the one who is worthy from you
(abramerlin the mage books I, II, and III)
http://hermetic.com/crowley/aa/abramelin1.pdf
http://hermetic.com/crowley/aa/abramelin2.pdf
http://hermetic.com/crowley/aa/abramelin3.pdf
http://www.hermetics.org/pdf/grimoire/goetia.pdf (lesser key of solomon (goetia)
http://hermetic.com/norton/pdf/gkos-1.pdf ( TheGreater Key of Solomon )
http://www.alchemywebsite.com/emerald.html
http://www.rosecroixjournal.org/issues/2009/articles/vol6_m_bb_perowanowitsch_en.pdf (emerald tablet of course)[left]